My Personal Testimony

I was once asked to answer the question “What has God done for you?” At the same time I was given a three to five minute time limit.  What follows is my brief answer to a question to which volumes could have been written.

I have been able to overcome (and truly forgive those responsible for) a childhood that included:

  • a father who abandoned me
  • a step-father who made many attempts to rape me
  • rootlessness caused by several moves between the ages of 4 and 10
  • family members who teased me for the stand I took (I became a Christian at the age of seven)

All of which left me with no self-esteem, no self-confidence and a first suicide attempt at the age of seventeen.

I have also been able to overcome adulthood difficulties including:

  • a husband who was verbally abusive and demanded my subservience in all matters
  • a divorce that left me with little contact with my son from 1985 to 2001 (contact being limited to five or six phone calls in 16 years)
  • continued rootlessness caused by another twenty-one moves between the ages of twenty and forty-five
  • severe depression leading to many more suicide attempts
  • addiction to alcohol

None of which improved my self-esteem or self-confidence.  In overcoming all this there has been healing of the depression and alcoholism.

Through all of this I have found a peace that truly surpasses human understanding: a peace in the face of income that was much less than I needed to meet my budget; a peace that says all will be okay even when everything falls apart; a peace that says I am of infinite worth to God and loved by many and able “to do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” A peace that held even when I lost the home I had dreamed of owning since I was seventeen. This peace has also carried me through several recent difficult situations, situations that make everything that was a part of my life previously seem like a piece of cake in comparison. And though I don’t always feel that peace, it is there when I am finally able to see past the situation to the knowledge that even if the situation doesn’t make sense, God is still in control.